Sunday July 17th 2011 — in your own journey
I did something for my parents today. I met with the man who leads prayer at our Mosque in Michigan– our Imam. They have been asking me to speak with him for a while. At first, I flat-out declined. Over time, I got more and more irritated that I was being asked to seek advice and guidance from a man who I had little to no actual interaction with. At last, I gave in. If meeting with Imam was going to shed any light whatsoever, or provide insight…. then heck, sign me up.
Even though I was talking myself into being open to the conversation all the way up to his front door, I found myself crying in front of him within minutes of my arrival. Explaining things that have happened, and how little I understand about the “why”. He listened. He took notes. He gave me some prayers to recite… and after all my doubt, after all my resistance… I trusted him. I believed him, and I feel better.
So then “God” is doing this to you?
Sorry but that is ridiculous. I think “God” has better things to do than to put you in this position. I would say that maybe you dropped the ball a couple times and let a few good ones get away.
I know that sucks to hear (and maybe some of your other readers are going to give me a hard time for stating that), but on the flip side the power is in YOUR hands to fix things.
Btw, I do respect the fact that you felt better after talking to this guy who probably cannot relate to one iota of what you are going through!
Comment by streo777 — July 19, 2011 @ 8:19 am
Streo777,
I agree with you on the power being hers and it’s her decision and there might have been some wrong turns along the way.
I don’t think she was getting at god was doing this to her, rather more of her opening herself and being vunerable to something and letting her walls down.
Comment by nay — July 20, 2011 @ 7:25 pm