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“connection” | July 13, 2011

Wednesday July 13th 2011 — con·nec·tionhttp://img.tfd.com/m/sound.swf (k-nkshn) n. a. The act of connecting. b. The state of being connected.

On a random Wednesday, I can still tell you… the person I have felt the strongest connection with, is still the person I feel the strongest connection with. If I could control what I felt, and order my heart to feel or not to feel, I would be doing just that. The boy is still with his girl… although, even she, can feel our connection.

So, what do we do? Do I just sit back in hopes of meeting another “phoner” or “friend of a friend”… in hopes they will provide a more than temporary fix to my loneliness? Or, do I tell you that I wish the “boy” would break up with her and be with me??

The truth is, I don’t want to be the reason anyone breaks up with anyone. I like the girl… she is nice. I do wish someone would come in, and magically make me feel more than he does. See, the feelings for him are always there to help me recover from someone else hurting me. The look from him is always there to make me feel like I am the prettiest girl in the room… and the unsaid is always there. It is so unsaid, I don’t even know what I would say anymore…. but I know there is still something to say.

This connection is more than a link… it’s become an anchor that needs to be untethered.