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the one I haven’t wanted to talk about… | June 16, 2011

June 16th 2011 — there’s just not much to tell.

I don’t have a glamorous date on the top of the Hancock with this one… no ice skating or Bahai Temple. This one is the one I can’t really put my finger on… he is something, I just don’t know what, yet.

He and I started communicating on match.com a while back… I actually think I was the one to “wink” at him. Anywho, emails on match turned into phone conversations…. and that’s where the interaction lived for a while. He doesn’t live in Chicago… so, phone was all we had.

I have spent quite a bit of energy on this blog talking about all the things I didn’t like about Muslim/Indian/Pakistani Men… yet, here I am– wondering about this one. I said I am open to anything and anyone… yet here I am, building with the same mold of a man I have been used to my entire life. Am I lying to myself about being open, or is he someone who can give me a part of both worlds? Is he the same blend of East/West, Muslim/American, Brown/White.. that I am? I can’t answer any of those questions… yet. I can say, he might be Muslim, he might be Pakistani… but he is not from my community back home – that is growth my friends :)

What am I comfortable saying about him? I can tell you that we have recently met. I can cop to the fact that I am scared, so scared that I found someone who makes me feel vulnerable. Getting along with him is the easiest thing I have had to do in this entire process… I am protective over this relationship. I don’t want things between he and I to change. I want to take it slowwww…. and I want to get to know this Man.

At this point, I have complete faith in God. I am going to keep walking in the direction of good things. Right now he is a good thing… he is just not a sure thing. For that reason… I am also gonna keep walking in the direction of meeting others.